I crush too easily. It’s a serious problem. Thankfully, I haven’t had to deal with this issue for a long time. Recently, I have been debating about ending my longest drought without having a crush. I probably went a good year or more without having a real crush. Now, I don’t want to go ahead and officially conclude this drought, but I see the light at the end of this tunnel possibly approaching me.
But, it’s true. I crush far too easily. I may see a guy, get to know a little about them, and then pretty much immediately fall for them. I am pretty positive that a normal human being doesn’t develop such strong feelings and a ballooned sense of hope as much as I tend to do. When I like someone, I really like someone. Now, this could be a good thing if there was a good chance that this crush would develop into a healthy relationship for both sides. But my cases usually seem to follow the same pattern: meet a guy > develop crush > obsess over guy > become too shy to follow through > guys gets girlfriend (not me) > crush is over. As you can see, this is not the greatest form of behavior for me, and I can admit this. But maybe I can change this.
So here’s to hoping that maybe this time I can play off my next crush in a better manner. Maybe this will be the time that either I will knock some sense into myself and set myself straight; or at least follow through in my feelings. Maybe this next time around, I will have learned from my many experiences in the past. Perhaps my next crush will be a more “real” experience, and less of a fantasy.